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binge binge binge. yuk yuk yuk. i hate this. my stomach has bloated out so far i fear it might explode! i feel fat, disgusting and err FAT! tommorow i dont eat. the day after that, 200 calories. the day after that, 500 calories...thats my plan so far. im going to go for a run tommorow morning. im getting back on track and this time I WILL NOT FALL OFF IT! i will be 90lbs and i will be skinny and i will be hungry and i will be happy. good night.
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- Mood:
thirsty
i have completely lost it. ive falling completely off track. i feel like shit. im bloated. i've eatin waay too much the past week. i even went for a run this morning. i thought i was falling back into place but no. binge binge binge. and to top it off i have the worst headache ever! urgh im such a failure :(
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- Mood:
cranky
im am so awake, you wouldnt belive it. today i have had 4 coffees ( milk + 3 sugars :s) and 2 glasses of chocolate milk. oh well at least its not food. and im losing! yay! i dont feel the urge to eat, im chewing gum and i feel so empty. its great! i love fasting. 2 more days to go. i can do this!
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- Mood:
crazy
yes! im finally back on track. its day 2 of 2468. im just thinking what im going to eat today. hmm...
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- Mood: cranky
today i had the day off school. i dont feel well. im so glad ive shedded the extra 2lbs i was carrying. phew. now im focusing back on my first goal weight: 100lbs
not much further to go. i cant wait til i get down to 90! i can do it. i will do it. today is my first day of 2468 and ive had 200 calories. no more for me today. 400 tommorow and im not sure if i can eat that much :S man i hate food atm. thats a good thing. 2468. ok im focused.
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- Mood:
sick
fuck. im so ashamed right noow. ive gained 2lb since my hideously repulsive super-binge last night. ive just had a manderin and im waiting for my ipod to charge and then im going for a run. im going to run until my heart stops. im going to run until im soaking in my own sweat and blood. ok maybe thats a bit exagerated but in the short, im going to get rid of those extra 2lb.
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arggh! dont you just hate it when parents force you to eat dinner? sheppards pie...yuk. i went straight down to my room to exercise. i did:
100 stomach crunches
100 sit-ups and
500 ( no seriously ) star jumps.
i thought that was pretty good. except, my mum is starting to notice my eating patterns. my little brother even told me i looked skinny the other day! im not quite sure if thats good or bad :S well today im not really sure what im eating. im getting ready to start 2468 again but tonight i might be drinking alcohol so perhaps i'll start it tommorow. i think today i'll try and do under 200cals and tommorow i'll see where i go from there. well good luck!
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- Mood:creative
im losing weight! yay! i hope this keeps up. im on a liquid fast tommorow will be my second day, i think i'll stop it there. on wednesday im going to eat "normally" but im not going near junk food. after that, i might do another two-day liquid fast and so on and so forth. well im staying strong and i havent given in to my cravings. thats how its going to stay. i will NOT give in to my cravings. thinking thin.
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- Mood:
tired
im gaining weight. im actually GAINING weight. i havent binged in like a week! what tha fuck?! ok im going swimming after school today with my friend. shit. she'll see the weight ive lost. oh well its exercise. im not eating ANYTHING at all today. and thats final. nothing but water and coffee for me. not one morsel of food will pass my fat greedy lips
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- Mood: aggravated
weight: 108lb
sometimes i really piss myself off. and i mean REALLY piss myself off. i change my plans like i change my freaking socks! yesterday, mum made me eat dinner. it made me feel sick because i had already eaten my 400cals for the day. i ran straight down to my room afterwards and did 200 star jumps and 100 sit ups. honestly sometimes i want to kill that woman. well that the abc down the drain now isnt it...
i dont know what to do now. i think i'll make my own diet. im going to make dinner for everyone tonight. it is going to be LOW CALORIE!
day 1: 300 calories
day 2: 400 calories
day 3: 150 calories
day 4: 200 calories
day 5: 400 calories
day 6: 150 calories
day 7: 300 calories
every day after dinner- 200 star jumps, 100 sit ups
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- Mood:determined
yes!!! im soo happy. my weight has finally began to come down... not by much but its an improvement. today im doing day 4 of the abc. that means 400 calories. at the moment, though, the thought of food is making me sick. yesterday i couldnt even manage 300 cals. i know this is a good thing but im doing the abc and i need to eat something. also i think my metabolism is starting to slow down. im going for a run tonight.
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- Mood:
anxious
food plan for tommorow:
-breakfast: low-fat yoghurt (95cals)
-lunch: cupasoup (45 cals)
-dinner: two slices of bread (180cals) two slices of cheese (104cals)
-snacks: water, coffee, grapefruit juice
total cals: 424
im going to start doing this everyday since my binge later today which im trying to forget about. tommorow night im going to be drinking so i dont want to eat too much beacause of all the calories in the alcohol. im going to eat the bread for dinner as late as possible so it will absorb some of the alcohol. never get drunk on an empty stomach i know. im blabbering now. luck for tommorow
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- Location:lounge
- Mood:
blank
oh my fucking god i just binged on like everything! the thing is i feel good... this is kind of weird. i really want to be thin but after a binge, i dont feel that bad. i just re-weighed myself and i havent put on any weight so thats good. im a bit confused ... :S i want to start a proper diet instead of just doing whatever. im looking for the abc diet chart but i cant find it. im eating dinner tonight - dont know how many calories but probably A LOT. oh well i can get back on track ,.. cant i?
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- Mood:
confused
ok so i think the sickness in my family has just about passed ( thank god ) and now im determind to get back on track. on easter i didnt eat that much but the thing is ... it was all chocolate! my birthday was worse. i ate a full breakfast at this cafe in town and had pizza for dinner then drank soo much alcohol.
i feel really guilty now. but now i AM going to focus on my dieting a bit more. today ive had a ( small ) piece of chocolate cake and now im just waiting for dinner. ive decided to prepare it myself. the kids are having tuna pasta and me and mum are having a jacket potato ( i spent ages making sure i chose the smallest one in the bag for me ) and some tuna. thats probably about 300 calories which isnt too bad. well all luck for tommorow.
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- Mood:determined
fuck! its easter and ive already had chocolate! fuck im so weak and to make things worse is that its my birthday tommorow and i'll have to eat because i'll be around my family all day and they will notice if i dont. fuck! that has really screwed up my plans! well after tommorow its serious dieting time. i think i'll either do the abc diet or i'll create my own rules. im quite a controlling person so i'll probably do my own thing. i was just starting to lose weight too! i hope i can reach my goal!!
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- Mood: aggravated
i know ive already posted today but i thought i'd say this before i go off to bed. today i have eaten about 100 calories even though im on 2468 and i feel like absolute shit. i cant eat at the moment beacause i just feel so sick. hopefully tommorow will be better...
- Mood: crappy
weight: 112.5
ok so today has been pretty much the same as yesterday ... boring! today is the first day of my 2468 and so far i havent eaten anything yet. i want to wait until mum gets home so she will see me eat and not suspect anything. ive been looking at food packets to see what would be best to eat if i want to get under 200cals. i just weighed myself and since yesterday it looks like ive lost about 4 pounds which is good. i hope i can keep this up!
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- Location:home
- Mood:
cheerful
well today has been pretty shit. i wasted so many hours just browsing this thing. today i have had 1 cup of coffee, 2 brunch bars and 2 packets of chips. tommorow i have to start counting calories. at the moment i have an alser so it is painful to eat. that should reduce the cravings. tonight i am going to watch the rugby at the AMI stadium. well im off.
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- Location:home
- Mood: content
